God it’s such a cliche isn’t it? But I can’t help but feel that it’s true. With work, family, friends and all sorts of things, I think this is true. This week, I got a phone call to say that a very special friend is pregnant with twins. I was elated. They’ve been waiting for this for a while, so it’s beautiful news that has made me smile. And then, I found that someone has died who I cared very much about – that afternoon. And then someone else, sadly, has died yesterday. The former was a shock and the latter wasn’t. But it truly made me think about death and how everything changes.
I’m sat here at my desk, trying to work, but finding it really hard to. I’m just not in the right place to work. I want to but everything is taking a long time – I get distracted, I cry, I can’t remember what I’m trying to do. And I’m doing a lot of thinking.
I’m sorry if this is overly self indulgent, but it feels right to put it on here for some reason. I want to document the highs and lows of life – the good and the bad – and the things that give me pause and cause for thought. When we try to force things, they can often turn out to be something other than what we wanted from them. When they come about unexpectedly, they are beautiful, fantabulous, wondrous things. I’m grateful for new friends – who I’m calling the Fruitbat Collective. I never saw them or that friendship coming. And I’d been trying to make new friends at school for so long, that it totally surprised me when I did find them!
And with work – I sometimes feel that I should be looking for more work but the truth is that we are more than busy enough and our best new clients come on personal recommendation because they are people who are more likely to be on our wavelength and will appreciate the great things we’ll bring to their business.
I don’t know, I’m rambling. Sorry. But I just wanted to put it out there that although I’m sad right now, and feeling very sad for everyone who knows the people who have passed, I’m also grateful for an awful lot as well. I am grateful that our boys are healthy and well – I have another friend whose little one is struggling with Hip Dysplasia. Sorry, I digress. I’m grateful. And that’s a good thing – I wouldn’t be able to appreciate the latter without the former. x