I know that I don’t blog enough, but when I do, I blog because I just want to put something out there. I’m conscious that I don’t always seem happy when I’m blogging and that’s because when I’m struggling to work something out, I find it useful to write it down and ask others for input. What I forget though, is that people who know me in real life read my blog as well as in my online life. And I was so touched today by someone asking me if I was ok – that they’d read my blog and thought to email me to check I was ok. They hadn’t gotten around to it but that’s ok, it’s the thought that matters to me, because life really can get away with you sometimes. And later on, at the village fete, I saw someone else who said that they had read my blog earlier this week and that they were nodding away, agreeing with it entirely, thinking how good it was for someone to be writing about life as they were experiencing it.

I hadn’t expected my friends from real life to comment on it or really notice it, so now I feel a bit embarassed for putting my thoughts out there in some ways, as I don’t want to feel like it’s in an attention seeking fashion, you know? I was just putting my thoughts down on my blog. I’ll tell you something else that I am glad for and it’s that my father in law, who we went to the fete with, wasn’t there at the time, as he so would not “get it” and would have been questioning me writing it out there in the public domain.

And that last bit illustrates the point of this blog perfectly. I don’t blog for other people. I don’t have any expectations of people reading this, that they will comment or contact me. I blog for me, for my amusement, reflection and to get my head straight. I don’t blog as funnily as NorthernMum who is something of a genius. I don’t blog on crafty stuff like the very talented Kerry does and I don’t blog in as eloquent a style as Porridge Brain or MichelleTwinMum. But what I do do with my blog, is write as me. This is me not being work orientated, demonstrating that I’m all singing, all dancing as a self-employed working mummy. This is me being me. Sometimes I’m happy, sometimes I’m contemplative and sometimes I’m excited if I’ve been given something to review.

There’s lots of post CyberMummy “what’s my purpose” blogs going on at the moment. CyberMummy had lots of great stuff, but it also had lots of cliques and it made me realise that I’m quite happy with my online and offline friends. I’m grateful for that.

Anyway, enough waffling. I blog to put myself out there. I read other people’s blogs to see what they are up to, thinking about and getting on with. I think that’s plenty to be going on with, don’t you? :)