I feel like Victor Bloody Meldrew. If I had 50 pence for every time I think “I don’t believe it” I’d be a wealthy woman right now.
Things I can’t believe:
- We have two boys at senior school. Bigger is settling in with a shrug and God, here we go again. Slightly Smaller is loving life – there are not enough days in the week to do all the clubs he wants to sign up for. If I hear much more about Warhammer and Dungeons and Dragons I’m going to have to take it up myself as a hobby to understand it. I don’t know how much longer he’ll believe my nodding and uh huh noises.
- We signed up to have more students live with us! We said it was a summer thing. But we miss having people here to have fun with – the boys are pleased that we have both Spanish and French speakers on route. They think a packet of digestives will secure them a term of language homework. Who am I to jolt them into reality? Anyway. Students. 16 and 17 year old girls, some staying to February and May next year. So we’ll see how it goes. To be fair, if it really doesn’t work, we’ll give notice and it would be fine. But it’s been such a good experience that we’re looking forward to the next intake.
- That I’ve been working at Belbin for seven months. I can answer 50% of the questions I’m asked by customers when I pick up the phone, which is progress. I’m settled in to several different projects and that’s great – but I’m also gearing up for another whole set of new learning and development stuff, which is so good to do. But also deeply unsettling as I like to be someone who knows everything about everything and just don’t have the time or mental headspace to dedicate myself to my love of learning like I want to.
- That I’m still losing weight. Slowly but surely, I’m doing it.
- How great it is to have friends. Friends are the fucking bees knees. I am so grateful to have women in my life who are smart, kind, funny, sharing and supportive. I swear if I’d know I’d have this squad – many of whom don’t know each other very well at all – when I was a teenager I’d have coped with not having friends then much better – I’d have known how incredible it is to have those people in my life and how together we take everything from black and white, to colour, to 3 d and then some.
- This bloody house. OH MY GOD. This house is so much more knackered than anyone could ever have realised. I am so worried about the winter coming – it’s going to show us exactly how knackered the windows are, how unreliable the heating is and there are no real fires so we can’t haul wood in to make us toasty. Bring on the bed socks cos we can’t keep pouring money into heating something where it all escapes so quickly.
- That we have a dog. He is so naughty. But I love him. Just don’t tell him I said so.