I’ve got my SIL’s wedding in June and I’ve been trying to use it as a focus for my healthy eating and also, to maintain myself a bit more – you know, cleansing, toning and moisturising etc. And of course, I’ve been looking at spanx, as something to improve the look of my dress and smooth out my lumps and bumps.
I actually don’t like spanx, but if I use the phrase you’ll all know what I’m actually talking about. I’ve had branded spanx and they made me sweat. A lot. It was horrible. So instead I’m now trying out Triumph’s super hold em in pants. They aren’t anything nice to look at but good grief, they have an effect on me. Here’s a picture of a model who looks nothing like me, wearing a pair :)
Surely I should be happy with this now I’ve got something useful? But no, here we go again, me and that voyage of discovery to inner happiness and acceptance of what I look like…. So here’s my dilemma – if I’m working to be happy with myself and who I am, isn’t it wrong to try and hide and re arrange bits of my body, so that they aren’t on show?
I am what I am, I am making progress and it’s having an effect. I feel empty enough without my comfort / reward / motivating food eating, so what is the solution? I don’t have a smart one liner to finish this blog post, it’s all just what I’m thinking about right now and will be I suppose for the journey to Lancaster to see my parents at their caravan / holiday home place. So that’s a 4hr journey plus breaks and traffic jams. Plenty of time to think about it then !!!!